Not so specifically. Emotionally, rather.

"Bringing" and "carrying" are very different concepts. In French there are different verbs that all technically mean "to carry and/or bring" but they have different contextual and grammatical uses. "To wonder" in French (se demander) translates to "ask oneself." I like this.

For the past few months I have been pulling apart my whole world and rearranging the pieces as best I can. Self-inflicted cleaning of the soul will eventually leave a big empty space somewhere. Just when I think I've arrived at a beautiful new place I look around and am confused again. It's hard to get it all right.

I am tired of tearing things apart and holding stuff back. It just breaks me to no end.


We devote so much time to learning new things, but I am trying to unlearn thought patterns I've acquired over the past 6 years so that I can look at my life with fresh binoculars and microscopes. More powerful lenses, macro and micro.